★BB新网站更新【11/3/5】Everything Has Its Place

I’ve decided most of this is being archived on discs. These discs I may never, ever look at again.   There are also so many other galleries and sets of things I’d like to keep but mostly just because I’d like them for myself. I know now that I’ve let on I’ve been keeping things from all of you that I will surely be met with a barrage of requests and urgings to release the stuff with haste.   To me, leaving these in the vault is like leaving a time that was corosive to my soul and fraught with insecurities where it belongs: out of my mind’s eye.   It hurts most when people compliment or herald aspects of that era. Besides, I’ve been assessing enough of that damage with other projects I’ve been working on . . .
More important than any of what is divulged above is the very simple truth: The past 2 years of my life have been the happiest of the last 10.   Not everything has been perfect but if it’s not one thing then it will surely be another.   I just think “Just roll with it, or it’ll roll all over you!”.
"Roll with it, or it'll roll all over you!"


这是旧照片吧

Paul’s face still warms my heart.
I went out with Papi and my mom and you can see it in our faces! We were more than just lit. We were thoroughly thrilled and we owned the night.



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只能看懂大概

BB这个是新的照片么？

回复：7楼
蛋腚。。。
我等得是别人。。。
回复：8楼
照片应该是以前的。。

应该是在电脑里掏出来的
他一晚上都在整理他的macbook

回复：9楼
我说动作什么啊看着好眼熟

回复：11楼
就是以前那个系列的

回复：12楼
BB咋就不来点新照

回复：13楼
你去催一下呢~~

Everything Has Its Place: Some of it Belongs in the Trash.
I was doing the unthinkable, yet long overdue, task of deleting old pictures from my working macbook. The poor thing is so bogged down with images, full galleries in many cases, that are 5 and 6 years old.
每件事情都有它的归属，其中的一部分就该被抛弃
我之前在做一件难以想象的，而且冗长的，早就该做的工作，那就是从我工作用的麦金塔电脑里删除旧照片。这个可怜的电脑，因为那些存的满满的，5，6年的老照片，速度慢的可怜

The trouble with going through these old files is that it can be immensely distressing. All the emotions and feelings come back. I can recall so much of where my mind was just by looking into my face of the images from shoots where I was set to be “on”. Or, ever more revealing were the candid images of times when I was meant to be enjoying myself. I can’t say that in all of the rough times I didn’t find some adequate outlet – or find some way to have a good time without hurting myself. But the truth is, in retrospect, most of the things I was doing to “unwind” were ultimately distructive. They only put more strain on me and made me less of what I could have been. I don’t blame others for this behavior, but now that much of that is not a part of my life I have a firm understanding who was contributing most to such a toxic way of life and frame of mind.
回顾这些旧的照片时的困难就是这过程让我非常的痛苦。所有的那些情感和感受全都回来了。我只是看着那些拍片时的照片上的我的脸，我就想起了很多那时的心情，拍那些照片的时候我被设计成“性奋”着的状态【这句真是好难翻，断句什么的】。或者，更让我心绪万千的是那些抓拍的照片，那时我本想要好好享受。我要说在那些很困苦的时候我找到了合适的方法去排解，或者找到一些不属于自残的方法来觉得愉快。但事实是，当我回首过去，我那时所做的为了放松而做的事情最终都是毁灭性的，只是让我压力更大，让我越来越不能成为我本可以成为的人【泪TOT,BB加油！】。我不为这些行为责怪其他人，但是既然这些里面的很多并不是我生活中的一部分，我清晰地知道是谁让我走上了这么一种有毒的生活方式，是谁让我心灵充满恐惧。